lose someone .

when you lose someone , someone you love . when they break your heart . it's the hardest thing you could ever go through and no matter how much time has passed , it never really goes away . you may think you're getting better , but then you get a flashback , or hear a song that reminds you of a memory , and it hits you all over again  , all at once , like a stab in the chest . you fall apart , for the hundreth time . and you feel like you just want to crawl under a rock and never come out . you love this person with all of your heart , even though you know you shouldn't . they hurt you worse than you've ever been hurt . they stole your happiness . but yet , you still want them , and only them . other people come along and give you chances to move on , but you know you don't want to , it upsets you that you might be moving on . because you promised you never would . and even if they broke all their promises , you want to keep yours . on top of that , you're terrified . terrified of getting hurt again . but its not like it matters anyway , at the end of the day you're still thinking about the person who has left you completely broken . you don't want to miss them anymore . you don't want to love them anymore , but you know you always will .